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Edona James touched everyone in the evening with the confession about the challenges she has gone through in her life. She has told about the difficulties of living in Kosovo, her parents' relationship, the curses and insults she has faced.
Edona talks about the process of turning from a boy to a girl about the challenges, operations and pains she experienced that made her stronger.
"Before the war, my aunt came and we went to Germany with my mother and brother. I was like a mother to my brother because I had to cook and play the role of a mother with him. We are only 2 years apart and that's why I should have grown up so quickly, I was never a child. My father beat my mother many times, and I don't like it. For me, father is not the one who made me with my mother, but the one who raises me and gives me love. I was born and no love was given to me, I was born not from love but from fate. My mother told me that since I was born, she didn't know what the child was. He didn't care if we were okay or if we had anything to eat. I know I have a father, but what has he given me? When you don't give me anything and I have nothing to give you. It's hard for me because my father never loved us. At that time, I didn't understand why the two of them broke up because when you are a child you will see your parents together. I never looked at myself in the mirror as a boy but as a girl. Mom was always told why she allows her son to dress up as a girl. Mother is married in Germany, but if we had lived in Kosovo, I would not be here. If I had lived in Kosovo, I would have drowned myself because I would never live in the body of someone I am not. From 6 to 13 years old, I always said on New Year's Eve, oh God, I hope when I wake up tomorrow I won't be a boy anymore. When I was 12 years old, my mother forced me to dress as a boy and I ran away to the orphanage because I couldn't bear to dress like that. I've been in the hospital a few times because I looked at myself in the mirror and saw something that's not girly and I took a knife and cut off half of my genitalia. I was bleeding a lot, and I told the doctors that I don't like my body like this. I wanted to realize my dream to be the way my heart feels. I told my mother I'm sorry if I can't live with you anymore. I fought for my life and for who I am. I was operated 3 times and the pain was great but I was happy because I found my body. I didn't come to Kosovo anymore because I was afraid they wouldn't do anything to me because they cursed and insulted me a lot. But I am happy that I have seen that now after 10 years I have become an example for many people. I have prepared my life for war. For a fight that I want to be what I want and live the way I want. I don't know how many surgeries I've had and how much pain I've been through, but I'm still strong. I won but it was a very long road. I get nervous easily and offend someone quickly because I'm used to just protecting myself from ridicule. I am happy the way I am and that path has made me stronger. I have a good heart and I don't wish anyone harm."
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